KKAARRMMAA

Up High and Looking Down Low

2008-04-24T17:30:06Z

Back on my feet once again and oh it feels good. what else? loving my life right now, it feels good to finish everything that needs to be done. Loving zee boyfriend who is truly AMAZING =).
Family - you guys are awesome
Friends- you know who you are and you keep me sane.
Boyfriend- I dont even need to tell you how I feel about you
School- Its been good =)
Dance- awesome but tiring !
Debut planning - pretty good !
everything else = pricelesss

<3

hanna rose sia

Brand New

2008-04-17T03:03:10Z

Mood: Bitchy but feeling lightened up at the same time

Lately, many people have been bugging me for so much things, funny how they come to you when they need you.
But then when there done, they leave you and then they move onto their lives like nothing happened
I hate it when people come BACK to you when they ONLY need you.
Times like this make me realize that you know what? I shouldn't even care about them.

The so called "OLD CREW," I used to chill with, you've all separated and lived your own lives,
But when you realize you need me once again, you come running to me and then use me
Funny I have to say that this time, it's done. If I don't talk to you, then I really don't mind your business.
I am so fed up of people using people basically.
I am going to live my life the way I always wanted it to be & I'm going to stick with it.
I have the people I truly need in my life & they know who they are.

You know what? It's the NEW ME, I'm done with so many things right now, trying to do this and that for people
It's time for me to change and not mind about so many people and just mind mine right now.
So if you ask me to do favors, do it yourself, cause I am NOT helping you with it.
I am so sick and tired of people coming up to me to make them do favors, so hear me out?
Leave me to what I do best & Just live your life.
Thank - You.

Hanna Rose Sia

Love You I Do

2008-03-28T00:58:11Z

He's the Perfect Man for me

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Updation

2008-03-26T01:37:34Z

It's been over a month since I haven't updated this, so here it goes:

As the past month has passed by, it has been awesome, from work, to family, to celebrating, to chilling out, to school, to my boyfriend =).
It sucks to be stuck at home right now since I'm sick, what a BUMMER. But anyways, one more week til our month <3 (excited!)
The Easter weekend has made me experienced that it feels really good to stay home and just catch up on things to do in the household, such as looking and reminiscing on photos from the past, getting rid of stuff you don't need, etc.

As for work, I am officially an employee for AD FAM, whoot, if you don't know what that is, it's a club promoting group. I get paid $ 10.00 to party in the clubs, how live is that? Seeing Elise Estrada & then next LC from the Hills is gonna be awesome, whoot.. FREE BOOZE, haha whoot whoot :).. and I can't wait til SEPT. (sorry only for exclusive people) .

As for school, it's stressful, trying to keep up with it, keeping up with INTL day which is a killer, what else? trying to wake up everyday JST to get to school, ugh i hate it but w/e.

Friends, you are awesome.. keep me sane ! (you know who you guys are)

As for Family, everything is good, except for loosing someone again in the family. REST IN PEACE NANAY BONIFACIA. Now your in a better place, I know for sure your watching over us. Love you so much <3 Just can't believe that your gone now.

Boyfriend, you are amazing. Thank you for everything babe !
Remember: Nothing and Noone can break us apart.

See me on a brighter day ! CIAO.

- HANNA ROSE SIA

Suffocate

2008-02-24T17:35:26Z

You drive me crazy
You drive me insane

You got me thinking
You got ME.

You hurt me emotionally
You hurt me physically

You make me wild
You make me an animal

But everything about you I just love so much =)

P.S. this isnt a BAD entry, haha so lets twist around this entry

you drive me crazy, you drive me insane= insanely crazy over you, god i love you
you got me thinking, you got ME= you have my heart, i gave up..its all yours...got me thinking about you 24/7
you hurt me emotionally & physically= emotion by not knowing exactly how you feel, physically by play fighting =)
you make me wild & an animal = you drive me to my limits to always want you no matter what

everything about you drives me crazy. i love you bumbum <3

Do You Ever Get This Feeling?

2008-02-18T06:22:00Z

Question:
Do you ever get this feeling when you haven't stayed home for like the longest time because you've been way too busy for anything that your always out doing something?
That feeling where you want to cuddle up on your bed and just act lazy for once in your life and not think and stress about anything that's happening in your life?
That feeling where your stuck on your bed and you just want to talk to your loved one?
It feels so good to actually stay home and do that on a Saturday Night.
What a relief, after that it's all back to the hectic life.

For the past few weeks, it has been hectic, planning this and that. Editing and revising dances is A LOT. Schedules, Schedules.. got to stick with it. It's been a crazy rollercoaster that I have been on for awhile now. I've been so stressed out that I am trying to keep up with everything.

I love the feeling that you just came home from such a hectic day, a tiring workout, stressful homework and then you just tend to have a simple smile from the person you love, cause that person makes me you smile from such a tiring day that it takes all the pain away. The last call is so important that it shows me how much YOU care for me. The goodnights that are ALWAYS complete is awesome =) .. thank you so much for everything my dear, you have been there no matter what. <3

- HANNA ROSE SIA

p.s. it feels good to finally tell the bestest friend on how much i feel for this kid :P

Ugh

2008-02-11T18:53:15Z

Exhausted & Frustrated

Weekly Schedule

2008-02-07T05:37:38Z

Thursday, February 7, 2008:
* School? - sick as a bitch but i'll try
* Tahitian auditions for the girls
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Finalizing Debut Planning
* Cleaning Entire Bedroom for Celebration (the next day)
* Dance Practice

Friday, February 8, 2008:
* School
* Cotillion Practice (S.C.)
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Finalizing some Debut planning
* Celebration for Chinese New Years (FAMJAM!)

Saturday, February 9, 2008:
* School (yes it's saturday school)
* Cotillion Practice (M.P.) ?
* Dance Practice
* Clubbing? ..don't know yet

Sunday, February 10, 2008:
* Work 9-3
* Cotillion Practice (G.G)
* Finalize major planning - BOO*

Monday, February 11, 2008:
* School
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Tahitian/American Practice ?
* Solo Teaching (G.G. & J.S)
* Hopefully Dance practice !

Tuesday, February 12, 2008:
* School
* ITDS Fundraiser
* American/Tahitian Practice

Wednesday, February 13, 2008:
* School
* Trevor Hopefully coming in for ITDS =)
* Tahitian/American Practice
* Hopefully dance practice !

Thursday, February 14, 2008:
* HAPPY V-DAY !
* School
* ITDS giveaways to finish up
* American/Tahitian Practice
* Meeting :(

-> Balancing with school, family, work & other things.. need to chill with them girls & guys.. miss them ALOT =).. in between planning and doing small errands.. ugh so much work to do .. so little time .. but it's all good cuz i got the best two people to keep me up.. thanks jen & ian <3

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS EVERYONE =)

For All Those Times..

2008-01-31T05:43:07Z

Ugh, I cant concentrate on studying for tomorrows exam..its all because of YOU
Ugh, I hate how i try to study & yet fail to accomplish
Ugh, I despise how your studying right now
Ugh, I hate how were not talking

Ugh, how i miss you...you bizznatch ! (tehehe I know i got you thinking :P)

p.s. god i love how im balling right now .. muahah & so excited for so many things...
new digicam
60 dollars of timmmies !
new laptop
stuff for the big event =)
the test coming up tht im taking.. whoot !
Driving ..yeuh yeuh !
Shopping & Jewelry for the big event ..whoot !
new tattoo.. oh how i love it

working, school, dance, sing, family, friends, party, HIM = balancing it baby !

SEXXED WEEKEND !

2008-01-22T19:28:28Z

January 18, 2008:

* HealthFair
* Sheppard-Yonge Chillage
* HOME- yes i got home early & stayed home ! (home arrival:5 p.m.)

it all started:

January 19, 2008:

* Saturday School
* Downtown shopping with Daddy
* Went home and packed up for the night =)
* CLUBBING @ LEVEL - the BEST night ever !
* Restaurant
* Driving with TWIN!
* JC's House
* My house to grab the JUICE !
* Drinking til morning (got to shanons by 5 a.m.)
* Dem Manz kept me up: David Forteau, Brian Laylo, Joseph Tillo, Shanon Alvis, Jarvin Ong, Jeff Mariano, Jonathan & Brandon <3 you guys !
- ALLNIGHTER -

January 20, 2008:

* Left Shanons @ 8 a.m.
* All guys STILL awake.. LMAO
* Work from 9 - 3p.m.
* Went home to get ready !
* Cotillion at Gercy's til 11 p.m.
* Went to Shanon's House
* BOWLING =) !
* JITZ challenge !
* Restaurant
* Driving Around with LAYLO !
* Missionz !
* Got home (6:30 a.m. of monday morning)
- ALLNIGHTER #2-

January 21, 2008
* Looserface called me to go to school
* Passed out :| & woke up @ 2 p.m.
* Lofted at home like there was no tomorrow
* Rested from the weekend !
- Skipped school *boo-

January 22, 2008:

* Skipped School til 4th period
* Town Center
* Home & Study for EXAMS !

overall the weekend was BOMB !... got to study this week for friday's exam and then after that PARTYING in the weekend !.. whoot .. cant wait !
reunion with everyone was AWESOME !

- cant wait for another weekend coming up... whoot
love you guys <3 ... thanks for the amazing weekend !

p.s. thank you for answering and showing me how much you care about me.. it showed me alot..thanks !
muahz* love you butthead <3

..Here In Your Arms..

2008-01-15T06:25:56Z

You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me care
You make me work
You make me go crazy
You make me insane
You make me love
You make me shiver
You make me happy
You make me think
You make me bubbly .

It's just everything you do that makes me complete. I love you.

P.s. Greatest weekend spending it with you . Thank you so much!
I thank God each and everyday for having someone like you to be part of my life.
You are one of the few who understands me and no matter what you respect me for who I am.
Your the best & I can't ask for more.

<3

Motivation

2008-01-12T05:43:17Z

* One week passed by successfully but feeling restless. It all went down like this:

* Monday:
School/Presentation/Spirit Squad Practice til 5:30 p.m/Dinner with Family to talk about the "womanization" (LOL) (got home:10:00p.m.)

* Tuesday:
School/American Meeting/Spirit Squad Practice til 5:00 p.m/Downtown Shopping for performance/*Memories*/went to Jenzo's work/went to lee's @ 10 p.m. to finalize her program for saturday. (got home: 1:00 a.m.)

* Wednesday:
School/Presentation/Tahitian Meeting/Spirit Squad Practice/Downtown Shopping again for performance/*Memories*/Chillage (got home 10:30 p.m.) *Skipped third & 4th period.. LOL

*Thursday:
School/Presentation/American Audition # 1/Spirit Squad Practice/Meeting @ Prince Hotel/Another Meeting at Spirale/Finalizing "Womanization" Plan/Dinner @ the restaurant (got home by 10:30 p.m) (ALLNIGHTER)

*Friday:
School by 6:30 a.m. in the FUCKING morning/Spirit Squad Practice/Presentation/International Day Meeting/NAP =)/Staying Home
(got home: 5:30 p.m.)

-> Overall, I made it through this week, even though I feel like dying right now, I am happy cause I have accomplished many things & I wasn't wasting my time. Keeping my resolutions this year, so far so good =). Other the less one week down, 8 months to go..here we go.

Weekend Overview:
* Saturday:
School/Go to Leanne's/DEBUT TIME !/Sleepover?

*Sunday:
Work/Project Day/Gercy's Cotillion Practice

I have accomplished that I am killing myself slowly, stress & sickness sucks A-S-S !

You make my long days shorter when you comfort me, I love you for that =).
Thank you so much for being here for me no matter what!
Even keeping up with my crankiness when I m feeling GRUMPY!
Love You Buttface <3

- HANNA ROSE SIA

..?..

2007-12-31T01:05:23Z

One word during the christmas break: BUSY

- Hanna Rose Sia

P.s. Happy Holidays to everyone = )

Feeling Good.

2007-12-17T23:25:34Z

- i miss my long journals, since I have time today and I am feeling great, let's do one...here we go. !

FRIDAY:

Where do I start? Well Friday was the most SPLENDID night I have ever HAD.
Council Night Performance was awesome, honestly I was so proud of each and every girl out there that went all out.
Seeing everyone dressed up was awesome and just feeling the vibe was even more sick.
Hmm what else was awesome on council night? I SAW MY BEST FRIEND, JUHX i missed you guy!
I am so happy that we finally reunited that day not knowing that we were gonna see each other.
Damn I missed that guy. I must see you once again you butthead.
So the NIght was young, we continued on to reach the club.
Yeup met up the girlies downtown to reach the club for shorty's birthday and it was awesome.
It was honestly the BIGGEST reunion ever! ... Seeing my Fam, Best Friends, Hommies, Fellas & Friends was ecstatic !
Partying it all out with them was even better.
Got home Friday Night : 3:45 a.m.
After that Mr. Choreographer calls me out to go to Denny's, yeup 3:45 a.m., calls me for FOOD. LOL.. that crackhead !
Didn't really sleep a lot but it was such a memorable NIGHT.

SATURDAY:

Satruday School, BAM I was late..but it was all good cause Mr. Alix didn't mind. It was the last class til January 12, 2008.
Yeup NEXT YEAR! whoot ! Never knew we got off early so I decided to leave asap once the bell rang.
Friggen bummhole of mine decided to hit me on the SHIN, UGH im so mad at you for that.
LOL.. you meanie !.. but anyways good time with mr. looserface.
Went to meet up with some of the west-enders for the event planning and then went home.
Surprisingly, stayed home =) ..even though people wanted to go out.
Had some NICE sleep which I was satisfied with !

SUNDAY:

It all started last night at home, something went up and Ateh cried.
Even though we fight and have major arguements, I just hate it when you cry.
So seeing you cry last night hurt me a lot, especially when it's your birthday.
Well anyways, Lil sister was in the rescue by arranging everything !
So Kuya & I convinced everyone in the family to go out around 7 p.m. for dinner at downtown.
Besides the SNOW STORM, we were all dressed up for the restaurant and ready to go.
Arrival to the restaurant was beautiful, thinking not a lot of people were coming in, we were wrong.
It was pretty busy for a restaurant on a SNOW STORM day.
The restaurant was BEAUTIFUL.
Menus came out, we all ordered and I was satisfied with what was happening just to make her feel good.
Food was satisfying and the Belly Dancer was Awesome.
She took me to dance in front of everyone but I knew it made my sister happy.
Yeup I did it for you, geez it was fun but it was embrassing at the same time.
Family time was awesome last night !
BILL = $457.50 (for six people)..mind you it's a fine dining place on Front street that Kuya & I chose =)
Slept at 2 a.m. = S

MONDAY aka today:

I woke up in such a great feeling & what happened..I decided to leave EXTRA early for school to make it on time !
Left my house: 8:20 a.m.
& WHAT HAPPENED? Got to school @ 11: 00 a.m.
Yeup it took 2 hours and 40 minutes to get to school.
But anyways, got to school and signed it at 11: 04 a.m.
Signed Out at: 11:15 a.m.
Which was pretty sad.
But anyways left with Lesby & Wifey to reach Bayview.
Wifey & I went to STC and went SHAPPING !
I swear I told myself I wasn't gonna buy shit, but what happened? I DID. LOL
It's all good.
Damn, I missed these days where I can spend these random days with the Wife.
Haven't had those for SO LONG, yeup a LONG TIME.
But anyways, thanks love for the day..you made my day and GOSHES we need another one.
WEDNESDAY? YEUP =)
Got gome: 5 p.m. ..teheh I am satisfied !

P.S. So I made up my mind, I am spending my tattoo money on the sleepover.. OoOo .. can't wait !

On Another Note:

I feel AWESOME and honestly I just want to thank those people who made it possible, Love you guys so much.
Yeup it's TRUE fucking FAM right there. Love you <3
Erase the rest =) ...Oh Btw, I love you.. tehehe

What Should I Call It?

2007-12-16T16:37:38Z

You tend to know who your truest are.....were

- Hanna Rose Sia

Patience is a Virtue

2007-12-12T17:44:12Z

Years, Months, Days pass by

But the more I feel like this, it confuses me on what really is happening between us.

Mind you, being with you is amazing.

But really, what is happening between us? Is there something between us your not sure of?

It really feels awkward asking you what’s going on between us..why?

It’s cause I’m Scared, yeup you got that right, I Hanna Rose Sia is scared to ask you how you feel about me.

I don’t want to get hurt by you and ruin our relationship we have together.

It feels nice like this but each time that passes by being with you, it gets closer but it gets me worried.

I know you’re still attached to her and I respect you for that, but honestly is there hope for both of us?

Is there a chance that I can have and show you how I really feel about you?

I gave up so many things just for you but honestly, do you even see it?

It’s chaotic right now since each and everytime I’m with you, I keep falling in love with you.

You’re perfect in every way that I can imagine.

My dearest, I hope you realize how I feel about you.

P.s. With you =)

Slowly Getting There...

2007-12-01T03:56:50Z

Main Word running through my life right now: Stress

Too many things are happening right now, time passes by and things are just getting worst for me. I try to settle alot of them just for the sake of it and so far it's ALMOST getting there. Not a lot of people know what's going through my head right now, but all I can say is that I just need some rest, that's all. I need to let it all out, here it goes.

PERSON #1: You were the one who told us that you wouldn't abandon us no matter what, you were the one who was the main example/leader of the group. I guess this time, I'm going to erase you off my life, not only that but I gave up on you that the only thing is running through my mind is, why try to fix it with you when it's been MONTH? Fuck you.

PERSON #2: I trusted you in so many ways, then you stab my back and tell HIM a different story? Honestly your the older one, aren't you suppose to be the one setting an example for me? I tell you things and then you tell him and then after that he lectures me about LIFE, fuck this I don't need this from any of you guys.

PERSON #3: I miss you, you haven't been here for so long. Yesterday was the first time that I saw you. It hurts a lot that I don't see you cause your basically one of my best friends. I can't run to you anymore since your never there. I try to contact you but your always busy with school and work. Basically busy with your business. I hope you come more often. *sigh

PERSON #4 & #5: You both are so CONFUSING, you guys caused me enough stress that it's honestly going to kill me. Both of you guys come running to me when it gets down to advices, what do you say? "Oh Hanna Thanks alot for everything, Oh Hanna this & that. I'm going to listen to you.. THIS & THAT >>> BLAH BLAH BLAH..but what the fuck do you both do? You both SCREW up and then come running back to me with your fucking problems. Mind you I didn't mind before, but now it's just a fucking habit that your only using this as an advantage.
Person #4- you honestly got my trust easily, but as time passed by. I realize what kind of true person you really are, you made me realize that what you deserved back then is what you really deserve right now. Time passes by and your going to finally realize that as of RIGHT NOW your hurting ALOT of people.
Person #5- I've known you for so long, we've been through so much. Your older than me and your the one who tells me to be the BIG person in a situation and be mature about it. But honestly, what the fuck are you doing right now? Your making the problem even worst each and every day that passes by.
REMEMBER GUYS: you both belong with someone. .. .ugh

PERSON #6,#7,#8: I thought we said we'll be tight? You three have been acting up like there's no tomorrow. Honestly, if you have a problem with me, why the fuck can't you guys confront me? You three assume so much shit and then start talking shit, honestly GROW THE FUCK UP. It makes me laugh how ridicolous I sound right now because I know I shouldn't be caring about WASTE people.

PERSON #9: Where the fuck can I start with YOU? We had OUR past, but why the fuck are you bothering me still? Like I really don't understand this, I told you it's over...FROM TIME.. and yet your still bothering me about so much stuff. UGH...I never liked you and never will. I don't udnerstand how you try to act so big whenever your around me and try to impress me with what you say. But honey, all I got to say is that STOP TRYING, honestly. FUCKING CALM DOWN. Now you honestly understand why the fuck people HATE you, YES hate you.. I can name LITERALLY 100 people who do.

PERSON #10: You had me sprung for days and then when I found out the news, I was like "WTF?" Wow that shows me how great of a person you are. AHHAA.. not even.. you are the most biggest FUCKING PLAYER ever, the most biggest flirt ever. We had our talks about the most serious things ever & you got me impressed, but what YOU just done and showed me, wow .I guess this time I believe that "Words are better left unsaid."

School-Wise, Oh goshes....to busy to talk about it. So many things are up in my head right now that I can't even concentrate. I need to keep pulling up the marks to stay up there & to actually try to improve. Life sucks right now for me. But I know time will pass by and it'll slowly come back to normal.. Hopefully that is..

My Thank-You's:

CHRISTIAN ANTHONY CHAVEZ:

Thank you so much, thank you for listening and helping me out through that emotional breakdown. Without you, I don't even know who I can run to. Thank you for everything you have shown me & done. It shows ALOT. Your such a great person & I respect you for that. Muahz*
Love yeuh Looserface <3 !

JENZO BERNARDINO:

My Wifey forever & always, I know your going through enough stuff too, but you listened to me when you didn't even know what I was going through, you took your time to listen to me and hear me out with the pain I'm going through right now. I honestly wouldn't know what the hell I would do WITHOUT YOU. I love you so much Jen & I hope everything turns out well with you. Stay up Darling, thanks for being there by my side and showing me that your such a great best friend. I love you so much <3.

I love you both til death, thank you for asking what was wrong with me, you guys comforted me ALL the way <3

Everything is shadesw of gray, hopefully time that passes by will change it all.

-HANNAroseSIA-

p.s. FIRST friday that I'm home early & not going out. Pretty sad that is.

"He Said, She Said"

2007-11-25T04:41:50Z

(Outside)
HE Said: "Are you cold?"
SHE Said: "Yeuh"
HE puts his arms around HER and tries to warm her up.
SHE says: "Thanks."

Sweet Love.

I<3HIM

A Real Good Man

2007-11-23T00:53:34Z

You showed me True Love .
You showed me how to adapt myself.
I want to thank you for everything.
You are the main person that makes me smile no matter what.
My love is for nobody except for YOU.
I love you with all of my heart.
Thank you for coming to my life, guiding me to a new atmosphere.
You made me a great person.
You've grown into a Man and showed me new things that you have never done before.

The foolishness, you showed me so much to change.
You made me realize how great life really is and not to stress about it.
You brought a soft side to me that I never knew I had.
All of the relationships I had, you showed me that I still have that chance.

Knowing that your going to be by my side no mater what is hard.
Were in between so much problems.
Problems that hurts both of us in so much ways.
I know I should let go of the past but you know how much it hurts.

When I'm with you, you show me how to love
It's so different with you, but I love it.
You show me how to be patient.
YOU made me a great person & I love you for it.

I just hoped you realized how much I love you for everything you do.
Each and every single thing.

<3

p.s. Your the only reason why I'm smiling everyday.

THANK YOU for loving me.

Anger Management

2007-11-22T22:43:56Z

Need time to cool down, somewhere FAR FAR away
The most simplest and smallest things piss me off.
People's attitudes towards each oher, fucking piss me off
Why can't fucking people just live their OWN lives and not bother other people's?
Littlest things are becoming so straight forward to me and it's showing me alot

UGH I don't want to be here right now
I need a fucking vacation.
I need to get back on track.
I need HIM to promise me your not going to leave my side.
I need to wake up and fix every single thing in my life
I need to calm the fuck down.

Thank God someone made LJ
it helps me to take it all out in typing a journal.
Hate me, Love Me, either way I don't give a shit.

PEACE.

p.s. entourage (woo-sah)

why cant everything just go back to normal?

"NOONE"

2007-11-20T05:40:31Z

This song just says it all:

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together

- Each & Everyday that comes it's getting closer to you, I love it.

% Hanna Rose Sia

p.s. your such a perfect person

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HOTNESS PATRICIA DE GUZMAN, LOVE YOU BABYGIRL !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HOMEGIRLS ANNE & JENKIN ..LOVE YOU BOTH TIL DEATH <3

.Can't Help But Wait.

2007-11-19T07:09:01Z

Note: I am UBER happy that I got my Internet back. (whootwhoot)

I haven't updated this journal for a LONG time, so I just wanted to update some stuff about what's happening in my life.
School has been hectic for me but at the same time it's been fun.
Family is cool with it :)
Everything else is great, I have to agree that everything right now is great I guess so.
But it's just this ONE thing that's not.
Only one person knows about this small thing and I trust this person with all of my heart that this person knows how I feel.

To someone special in my life:

Darling, I understand that you have this obsession over it.
You are the HARDEST person ever to be with
But the EASIEST person to get along with.
I just hope one day you realize how I entirely feel about you, not only that but to also see what possible chances we can do about it
It does hurt to see that you appreciate her more & Where am I ? I don't even know anymore.
You see, we have our BEST TIMES & never our worst times,
And all I'm asking was that to know how you feel about this situation.
Honestly, I waited for so long...it's been too long that I'm starting to give up on you.
I know I shouldn't cause I know it'll be worth it in the end.
It hurts a lot to see how your so fond of her and here I am just taking it all in.
I really can't help but wait to see what time does to both of us.
YOU have made me a WONDERFUL person
From inside to out, I appreciate it...each and every aspect of it.
Your a Good Man, your just perfect in every way.
I couldn't ask for more and I can't see anything that I would want for you to change.
It's the most littlest things that you do that makes me fall in love with you.
Yes, I said LOVE, it's hitting me so hard that I have been so in love with you for so long
Long enough that I just noticed it's been two years.
You take my pain away like it's nothing to you
Your always that person that makes me smile no matter what
Your the person that I truly trust and always can rely on
Your the person that I know that will take care of me no matter what
Your the person that proved that simple is beauty.
I can go on and on....but I know it'll be endless.
I love you with all of my heart.
I want to thank you for everything, from the start and forever on.
<3
p.s. it hurts cause you don't even know.... *sigh

- Hanna Rose Sia

Living the GOODLIFE.

2007-10-29T16:41:41Z

Summary of Weekend: THE BEST WEEKEND EVER !
It would've not been AWESOME without them , love you guys <3

....Home Sweet Home....

Living the Goodlife, throw my arms way up in the sky.. oh i love it : )

- Hanna Rose Sia

p.s. wont be online for awhile...

Last Love Song

2007-10-22T02:20:07Z

Am I trying to hard
To Keep this love alive
You don't seem to care
About this love that we had

I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore

I thought we shared a life that was full of love
But now I realize we shared an empty hope
I will cry my last cry
Before I say bye bye
I will sing my last love song for you tonight

Question:
Should YOU let go of HER?
OR
Should I let go of YOU?

...Innocence...

2007-10-19T16:18:56Z

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

- this song means alot to me.