He's the Perfect Man for me

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It's been over a month since I haven't updated this, so here it goes: 

As the past month has passed by, it has been awesome, from work, to family, to celebrating, to chilling out, to school, to my boyfriend =). 
It sucks to be stuck at home right now since I'm sick, what a BUMMER. But anyways, one more week til our month <3 (excited!)
The Easter weekend has made me experienced that it feels really good to stay home and just catch up on things to do in the household, such as looking and reminiscing on photos from the past, getting rid of stuff you don't need, etc. 

As for work, I am officially an employee for AD FAM, whoot, if you don't know what that is, it's a club promoting group. I get paid $ 10.00 to party in the clubs, how live is that? Seeing Elise Estrada & then next LC from the Hills is gonna be awesome, whoot.. FREE BOOZE, haha whoot whoot :).. and I can't wait til SEPT. (sorry  only for exclusive people) . 

As for school, it's stressful, trying to keep up with it, keeping up with INTL day which is a killer, what else? trying to wake up everyday JST to get to school, ugh i hate it but w/e. 

Friends, you are awesome.. keep me sane ! (you know who you guys are) 

As for Family, everything is good, except for loosing someone again in the family. REST IN PEACE NANAY BONIFACIA.  Now your in a better place, I know for sure your watching over us. Love you so much <3 Just can't believe that your gone now. 

Boyfriend, you are amazing. Thank you for everything babe ! 
Remember: Nothing and Noone can break us apart. 

See me on a brighter day ! CIAO. 

- HANNA ROSE SIA

You drive me crazy
You drive me insane

You got me thinking
You got ME. 

You hurt me emotionally
You hurt me physically

You make me wild
You make me an animal 

But everything about you I just love so much  =) 


P.S. this isnt a BAD entry, haha so lets twist around this entry

you drive me crazy, you drive me insane= insanely crazy over you, god i love you 
you got me thinking, you got ME= you have my heart, i gave up..its all yours...got me thinking about you 24/7
you hurt me emotionally & physically= emotion by not knowing exactly how you feel, physically by play fighting =) 
you make me wild & an animal = you drive me to my limits to always want you no matter what

everything about you drives me crazy. i love you bumbum <3

Question: 
Do you ever get this feeling when you haven't stayed home for like the longest time because you've been way too busy for anything that your always out doing something? 
That feeling where you want to cuddle up on your bed and just act lazy for once in your life and not think and stress about anything that's happening in your life?
That feeling where your stuck on your bed and you just want to talk to your loved one?
It feels so good to actually stay home and do that on a Saturday Night. 
What a relief, after that it's all back to the hectic life. 

For the past few weeks, it has been hectic, planning this and that. Editing and revising dances is A LOT. Schedules, Schedules.. got to stick with it. It's been a crazy rollercoaster that I have been on for awhile now. I've been so stressed out that I am trying to keep up with everything. 

I love the feeling that you just came home from such a hectic day, a tiring workout, stressful homework and then you just tend to have a simple smile from the person you love, cause that person makes me you smile from such a tiring day that it takes all the pain away. The last call is so important that it shows me how much YOU care for me. The goodnights that are ALWAYS complete is awesome =) .. thank you so much for everything my dear, you have been there no matter what. <3 


- HANNA ROSE SIA 


p.s. it feels good to finally tell the bestest friend on how much i feel for this kid :P

Exhausted & Frustrated

Thursday, February 7, 2008:
* School? - sick as a bitch but i'll try 
* Tahitian auditions for the girls
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Finalizing Debut Planning
* Cleaning Entire Bedroom for Celebration (the next day)
* Dance Practice

Friday, February 8, 2008:
* School
* Cotillion Practice (S.C.)
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Finalizing some Debut planning
* Celebration for Chinese New Years (FAMJAM!)

Saturday, February 9, 2008:
* School (yes it's saturday school) 
* Cotillion Practice (M.P.) ?
* Dance Practice
* Clubbing? ..don't know yet

Sunday, February 10, 2008:
* Work 9-3
* Cotillion Practice (G.G)
* Finalize major planning - BOO*

Monday, February 11, 2008: 
* School
* ITDS Fundraiser
* Tahitian/American Practice ?
* Solo Teaching (G.G. & J.S)
* Hopefully Dance practice !

Tuesday, February 12, 2008:
* School
* ITDS Fundraiser
* American/Tahitian Practice

Wednesday, February 13, 2008: 
* School
* Trevor Hopefully coming in for ITDS =) 
* Tahitian/American Practice
* Hopefully dance practice !

Thursday, February 14, 2008:
* HAPPY V-DAY !
* School
* ITDS giveaways to finish up 
* American/Tahitian Practice
* Meeting :( 


-> Balancing with school, family, work & other things.. need to chill with them girls & guys.. miss them ALOT =).. in between planning and doing small errands.. ugh so much work to do .. so little time .. but it's all good cuz i got the best two people to keep me up.. thanks jen & ian <3 

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS EVERYONE =)

January 18, 2008: 

* HealthFair
* Sheppard-Yonge Chillage
* HOME- yes i got home early & stayed home ! (home arrival:5 p.m.)

it all started:

January 19, 2008:

* Saturday School
* Downtown shopping with Daddy
* Went home and packed up for the night =) 
* CLUBBING @ LEVEL - the BEST night ever !
* Restaurant 
* Driving with TWIN!
* JC's House
* My house to grab the JUICE !
* Drinking til morning (got to shanons by 5 a.m.)
* Dem Manz kept me up: David Forteau, Brian Laylo, Joseph Tillo, Shanon Alvis, Jarvin Ong, Jeff Mariano, Jonathan & Brandon <3 you guys !
- ALLNIGHTER -

January 20, 2008:

* Left Shanons @ 8 a.m. 
* All guys STILL awake.. LMAO
* Work from 9 - 3p.m.
* Went home to get ready !
* Cotillion at Gercy's til 11 p.m.
* Went to Shanon's House
* BOWLING  =) !
* JITZ challenge !
* Restaurant
* Driving Around with LAYLO !
* Missionz !
* Got home (6:30 a.m. of monday morning)
- ALLNIGHTER #2-

January 21, 2008
* Looserface called me to go to school
* Passed out :| & woke up @ 2 p.m. 
* Lofted at home like there was no tomorrow
* Rested from the weekend !
- Skipped school *boo-

January 22, 2008:

* Skipped School til 4th period
* Town Center
* Home & Study for EXAMS !

overall the weekend was BOMB !... got to study this week for friday's exam and then after that PARTYING in the weekend !.. whoot .. cant wait !
reunion with everyone was AWESOME !

- cant wait for another weekend coming up... whoot 
love you guys <3 ... thanks for the amazing weekend !




p.s. thank you for answering and showing me how much you care about me.. it showed me alot..thanks !
muahz* love you butthead <3

* One week passed by successfully but feeling restless. It all went down like this:

* Monday: 
School/Presentation/Spirit Squad Practice til 5:30 p.m/Dinner with Family to talk about the "womanization" (LOL) (got home:10:00p.m.)

* Tuesday: 
School/American Meeting/Spirit Squad Practice til 5:00 p.m/Downtown Shopping for performance/*Memories*/went to Jenzo's work/went to lee's @ 10 p.m. to finalize her program for saturday. (got home: 1:00 a.m.)

* Wednesday:
School/Presentation/Tahitian Meeting/Spirit Squad Practice/Downtown Shopping again for performance/*Memories*/Chillage (got home 10:30 p.m.) *Skipped third & 4th period.. LOL

*Thursday:
School/Presentation/American Audition # 1/Spirit Squad Practice/Meeting @ Prince Hotel/Another Meeting at Spirale/Finalizing "Womanization" Plan/Dinner @ the restaurant (got home by 10:30 p.m) (ALLNIGHTER)

*Friday:
School by 6:30 a.m. in the FUCKING morning/Spirit Squad Practice/Presentation/International Day Meeting/NAP =)/Staying Home 
(got home: 5:30 p.m.)

-> Overall, I made it through this week, even though I feel like dying right now, I am happy cause I have accomplished many things & I wasn't wasting my time. Keeping my resolutions this year, so far so good =). Other the less one week down, 8 months to go..here we go.

Weekend Overview:
* Saturday:
School/Go to Leanne's/DEBUT TIME !/Sleepover?

*Sunday:
Work/Project Day/Gercy's Cotillion Practice

I have accomplished that I am killing myself slowly, stress & sickness sucks A-S-S !

You make my long days shorter when you comfort me, I love you for that =). 
Thank you so much for being here for me no matter what!
Even keeping up with my crankiness when I m feeling GRUMPY!
Love You Buttface <3 


- HANNA ROSE SIA

One word during the christmas break: BUSY 

- Hanna Rose Sia



P.s. Happy Holidays to everyone = )

You tend to know who your truest are.....were
 

- Hanna Rose Sia

Years, Months, Days pass by

But the more I feel like this, it confuses me on what really is happening between us.

Mind you, being with you is amazing.

But really, what is happening between us? Is there something between us your not sure of?

It really feels awkward asking you what’s going on between us..why?

It’s cause I’m Scared, yeup you got that right, I Hanna Rose Sia is scared to ask you how you feel about me.

I don’t want to get hurt by you and ruin our relationship we have together.

It feels nice like this but each time that passes by being with you, it gets closer but it gets me worried.

I know you’re still attached to her and I respect you for that, but honestly is there hope for both of us?

Is there a chance that I can have and show you how I really feel about you?

I gave up so many things just for you but honestly, do you even see it?

It’s chaotic right now since each and everytime I’m with you, I keep falling in love with you.

You’re perfect in every way that I can imagine.

My dearest, I hope you realize how I feel about you.

P.s. With you =)

Main Word running through my life right now: Stress

Too many things are happening right now, time passes by and things are just getting worst for me. I try to settle alot of them just for the sake of it and so far it's ALMOST getting there. Not a lot of people know what's going through my head right now, but all I can say is that I just need some rest, that's all. I need to let it all out, here it goes. 

PERSON #1: You were the one who told us that you wouldn't abandon us no matter what, you were the one who was the main example/leader of the group. I guess this time, I'm going to erase you off my life, not only that but I gave up on you that the only thing is running through my mind is, why try to fix  it with you when it's been MONTH? Fuck you. 

PERSON #2: I trusted you in so many ways, then you stab my back and tell HIM a different story? Honestly your the older one, aren't you suppose to be the one setting an example for me? I tell you things and then you tell him and then after that he lectures me about LIFE, fuck this I don't need this from any of you guys.

PERSON #3: I miss you, you haven't been here for so long. Yesterday was the first time that I saw you. It hurts a lot that I don't see you cause your basically one of my best friends. I can't run to you anymore since your never there. I try to contact you but your always busy with school and work. Basically busy with your business. I hope you come more often. *sigh

PERSON #4 & #5: You both are so CONFUSING, you guys caused me enough stress that it's honestly going to kill me. Both of you guys come running to me when it gets down to advices, what do you say? "Oh Hanna Thanks alot for everything, Oh Hanna this & that. I'm going to listen to you.. THIS & THAT >>> BLAH BLAH BLAH..but what the fuck do you both do? You both SCREW up and then come running back to me with your fucking problems. Mind you I didn't mind before, but now it's just a fucking habit that your only using this as an advantage. 
Person #4- you honestly got my trust easily, but as time passed by. I realize what kind of true person you really are, you made me realize that what you deserved back then is what you really deserve right now. Time passes by and your going to finally realize that as of RIGHT NOW your hurting ALOT of people. 
Person #5- I've known you for so long, we've been through so much. Your older than me and your the one who tells me to be the BIG person in a situation and be mature about it. But honestly, what the fuck are you doing right now? Your making the problem even worst each and every day that passes by. 
REMEMBER GUYS: you both belong with someone. ..  .ugh 

PERSON #6,#7,#8: I thought we said we'll be tight? You three have been acting up like there's no tomorrow. Honestly, if you have a problem with me, why the fuck can't you guys confront me? You three assume so much shit and then start talking shit, honestly GROW THE FUCK UP. It makes me laugh how ridicolous I sound right now because I know I shouldn't be caring about WASTE people. 

PERSON #9: Where the fuck can I start with YOU?  We had OUR past, but why the fuck are you bothering me still? Like I really don't understand this, I told you it's over...FROM TIME.. and yet your still bothering me about so much stuff. UGH...I never liked you and never will. I don't udnerstand how you try to act so big whenever your around me and try to impress me with what you say. But honey, all I got to say is that STOP TRYING, honestly. FUCKING CALM DOWN. Now you honestly understand why the fuck people HATE you, YES hate you.. I can name LITERALLY 100 people who do. 

PERSON #10: You had me sprung for days and then when I found out the news, I was like "WTF?" Wow that shows me how great of a person you are. AHHAA.. not even.. you are the most biggest FUCKING PLAYER ever, the most biggest flirt ever. We had our talks about the most serious things ever & you got me impressed, but what YOU just done and showed me, wow .I guess this time I believe that "Words are better left unsaid." 

School-Wise, Oh goshes....to busy to talk about it.  So many things are up in my head right now that I can't even concentrate. I need to keep pulling up the marks to stay up there & to actually try to improve. Life sucks right now for me. But I know time will pass by and it'll slowly come back to normal.. Hopefully that is.. 


My Thank-You's:

CHRISTIAN ANTHONY CHAVEZ:

Thank you so much, thank you for listening and helping me out through that emotional breakdown. Without you, I don't even know who I can run to. Thank you for everything you have shown me & done. It shows ALOT. Your such a great person & I respect you for that. Muahz* 
Love yeuh Looserface <3 ! 

JENZO BERNARDINO:

My Wifey forever & always, I know your going through enough stuff too, but you listened to me when you didn't even know what I was going through, you took your time to listen to me and hear me out with the pain I'm going through right now. I honestly wouldn't know what the hell I would do WITHOUT YOU. I love you so much Jen & I hope everything turns out well with you. Stay up Darling, thanks for being there by my side and showing me that your such a great best friend. I love you so much <3. 

I love you both til death, thank you for asking what was wrong with me, you guys comforted me ALL the way <3


Everything is shadesw of gray, hopefully time that passes by will change it all. 

-HANNAroseSIA-


p.s. FIRST friday that I'm home early & not going out. Pretty sad that is.

(Outside)
HE Said: "Are you cold?" 
SHE Said: "Yeuh"
HE puts his arms around HER and tries to warm her up. 
SHE says: "Thanks." 

Sweet Love.


























I<3HIM

You showed me True Love .
You showed me how to adapt  myself. 
I want to thank you for everything.
You are the main person that makes me smile no matter what.
My love is for nobody except for YOU. 
I love you with all of my heart.
Thank you for coming to my life, guiding me to a new atmosphere. 
You made me a great person.
You've grown into a Man and showed me new things that you have never done before. 

The foolishness, you showed me so much to change. 
You made me realize how great life really is and not to stress about it. 
You brought a soft side to me that I never knew I had. 
All of the relationships I had, you showed me that I still have that chance. 

Knowing that your going to be by my side no mater what is hard. 
Were in between so much problems. 
Problems that hurts both of us in so much ways. 
I know I should let go of the past but you know how much it hurts. 

When I'm with you, you show me how to love
It's so different with you, but I love it.
You show me how to be patient.
YOU made me a great person & I love you for it. 

I just hoped you realized how much I love you for everything you do. 
Each and every single thing. 

<3 

p.s. Your the only reason why I'm smiling everyday. 


THANK YOU for loving me.

Need time to cool down, somewhere FAR FAR away 
The most simplest and smallest things piss me off.
People's attitudes towards each oher, fucking piss me off
Why can't fucking people just live their OWN lives and not bother other people's? 
Littlest things are becoming so straight forward to me and it's showing me alot

UGH I don't want to be here right now
I need a fucking vacation. 
I need to get back on track.
I need HIM to promise me your not going to leave my side.
I need to wake up and fix every single thing in my life
I need to calm the fuck down. 

Thank God someone made LJ
it helps me to take it all out in typing a journal. 
Hate me, Love Me, either way I don't give a shit.

PEACE. 



p.s. entourage  (woo-sah)

why cant everything just go back to normal?